Have you ever had to wait for something, and the moment you feel ready to have it, you were told "Hold on, there's other stuff you need to focus on."?
Thank God, I think I'm having one of those moments.
I'm not going to Russia. The church in Perm cancelled the trip. Despite the fact that I now have an obscene amount of saved money that has no purpose, this is a downer. I've been gearing up for this trip for the past three months and it's just kinda slipped through my fingers.
However, I think it was a work of the Holy Spirit. He wants me here. He wants me to concentrate on other things. Things that, in the end, are more important. My (otleechna) friends, my church, AP courses, and my PSATs and SATs. God has given me a solid foundation on the rock. It's me who needs to choose what to build the house with. I keep being told that the SATs are only a test, that they don't make your life. This is a true statement, sort of. But what it does decide is where I go to college, and where I go to college is a big deal! The final four, (most likely eight) years of my education RELY on those scores. I've been studying for them, but not very seriously. Time to buckle down...
Does anyone else read their fortune cookies when they go to Chinese restaurants? I have fun with it. I never take them seriously. Especially when my sister has gotten one that said "Don't kiss an elephant on the lips today." (no joke). But, sometimes they have cool stuff to say. One time, I got a particularly meaningful pastry. The message inscribed in it's recycled paper slip was short, and sweet to anyone who knows Christ.
"Deep Faith Eliminates Fear"
I still have that fortune. It's really cool to think about at times like these. God has kicked me up off my butt and pointed me where he wants me. Thankfully, I am grounded in deep faith that God's Providence is enough. My God goes before me, he lives in me, and he comes after me. I can see him there. Who should I fear? (Joshua 1:9, Psalm 27:1)
So, now I'm going to start work on my two AP applications, studying for the SATs, and devoting with the guy's prayer meeting in mind. :-) God is good.
Well, as my AIM profile now says: "The wait is over, the Future is here."
and I want you to be a part of it.
-Wes
Today's song: "Wires" by Athlete
4 comments:
hey wes
I just wanted to say I really admire your strong faith...I often struggle with faith and your latest blog entry was really encouraging to me. Thanks. ~~Meghan~~
Wes, I'm so sorry to hear the news! And yet, so encouraged that you know who holds the key to unmeasurable goodness.
I actually got a cookie a week ago with a very good phrase on it; "A day of worry is more exhausting than a week of work." I'm definitely keeping that one until Finals Week...
And I still haven't hung out with you much. Must make plans soon!
bnhbs
Babies Never Hold Blue Scarves
I think God has a purpose in mind for that money...
Most recent fortune cookies:
"Next time order the shrimp"
"Don't forget your takeout"
"Today you should spend some time to search in yourself"
"You will stumble into the happiness of your life"
I had Chinese food twice last week =D
On a side note to the topic of God's Providence, I think it's worth noting that our church has a pretty great name. Seriously.
Hey [Insert name Here],
I know who you are just by the first fortune that you listed. lol.
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